Call of Conscience

REFLECTION


After our caroling together with my co-bukid major seminarians to Bukidnon last December, I then spent all my Christmas vacation in the parish, helping my parish priest by serving every dawn masses including the big celebration of the Christmas and new years mass, perhaps cleaning the convent in preparation for such occasions to celebrate in different organization, teaching the young altar night how to serve in a proper way, and other.
On that experience of mind during the Christmas break helped a lot to slowly built up a relationship with my parish priest. Because since from the beginning of the year in our parish he did not know me and as I reveal my self by helping him is a one way we could know each other. And perhaps as a tradition in every seminarians life as to report to their parish priest they may receive some financial assistance for personal needs of the seminarians.
Indeed, on a certain day when I was in the parish he told me that we go together to the barrio for the mass and to serve, so I decided to go with him. And it is my opportunity to be with the barrio people since many years that I was not assign in our own barrio for the seminary formation that I have.
However, on the other hand, as I helped in the convent I also spent few days at home, for the house hold choirs. Helping my parents in some family activities a family program during the day of Christmas for as to built more relationship to each one of the family member. And with the presence of my brothers and sister we share lots of experiences during our childhood days. And indeed the presence also of my parents is somehow gives us the hope to continue in our endeavors.
As the Christmas vacation is seemingly ended and seminary reporting is past approaching, I then asked permission to my parish priest, that tomorrow is the day of our reporting. And what is in my mind is that I my received some amount of money as “pinaskuhan” for such endeavors I made during that certain labor days.
But I was frustrated for what I expected to happen that even a single amount for me to have for a fare to the seminary he did not even give. And so what I did I went to the secretary to ask some amount and she give me. And I told her “sag di lang Te kung akoy mapari ing-anion gi hapon nako ang akung mga seminarista”. In that certain point of my word, which come out to my mouth, made me to ponder as I reflected on it to a call for conscience.
“Nakoncensya ko”, for I only focus to my emotional wanting which to gained money out of the labors I made. What for me to happened is something in return? Moreover, as what had happened I did not give-up to returned to the seminary without even a pocket money. But in fact I am so happy reflecting on that experience that I have I am happy without any deep depression in my heart for as long I’m still happy serving others